cutting the apron strings

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

quotes

If there are no stupid questions, then what kind of questions do stupid people ask? Do they get smart just in time to ask questions?

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.

Henry Bromel


Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to be involved with them. Love is not a bandage to cover wounds.

Hugh Elliot


Love is the delightful interval between meeting a beautiful girl and discovering that she looks like a haddock.

John Barrymore


I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.

Rita Rudner

The universal brotherhood of man is our most precious possession.

strange...

first i was pointy.....
















now aparently im a good egg.... gunna be cracked soon so i can be mixed into the 'scrambled egg' with all the other egg cases.

crash down.

woo yey :D:D:D:D

I helped out our sound guy this morning and it was great! he had to go down to northampton, which took the duration of the service so i was filling in for him. there were only a few hiccups, which i was kicking myself for at the time and am a little bit now, but i realised that it didnt actually matter. i was there when i was needed, and perhaps even helped people to apreciate the work he does more, i certainly do! its not as easy as he makes it look! with time i hope to be as good as him. hes a great guy and i often feel hes not thanked enough, but i suppose thats not for me to judge. his praise in heaven is worth alot more than i can ever give. THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!! woo now to go to LTP(mums church) and sort out why their pa system isnt working

rant

ok. im going to have a little rant. stupid sound system. cant plug a cd player into the main mix cos there arent enough channels and im not alloed to pull the sound desk apart to rewire it sob. im going to see if i can rewire the speakers so that they take input from the main mix and from the tape in(which is on a different output). im still not happy with that arrangement cos it means that someone has to push a button which means they have the amp box open so they are likely to fiddle. i know its not my church but i still feel responsible for some of the stuff cos i helped put it all in. so i know how it works. they dont even believe that cos i was there when the majority of it was done, i know more about how to deal with it if it goes wrong. theres also the common conception at that church that they should get a cheap contractor to come in to do something simple like hang a door, or nail a roof tile back to the ceiling. they refuse to believe that either me or my mum or a group effort could do it for free and probably get a better job done for it. moan groan. going in tomorrow to hang a door. and probably turn the light in the kitchen round too. woo for diy sos dale style

warehouse song

whats your favorite bit?

When you come into the warehouse
You'll know you're in a place
that in spite of all the problems
God has filled with grace
It's been running thirty years now
And though sometimes it's tough
We'll keep shining
'Till the dark has had enough

And the love of God is at Goodness Foods
It keeps us together
And makes us all one
Yes the love of God is at Goodness Foods
It keeps this family strong

Oh we start at 8.30
Some come early some come late
The checkers wrap our boxes
in bright red sellotape
All the pickers are smiling '
cos they're glad that they are here
And the Goods-in boys
Are trying to make it clear

That the love of God...

Down in packing, there's Ulla
And her team, they are great
There's Joh and the bakers
Making flapjack by the crate
There are folks in e-commerce,
Out in cyberspace
And the High 5 guys
Are running the good race

Chorus

Nick and Chris are trading
While the buyers all make deals
And the salesgirls are chatting
In accounts they're counting beans
and the IT department
Is very rarely stressed
While Ed the boss
Is always neatly dressed

Chorus

comparrisons

been thinking recently, and noticing that jed had a lot of things in common with someone i know. less differences. heres a list of differences(1st one is jed, then other person): fat-thin, balding-full head of hair, beard-shaven(well thats the appearance ones...), messy-tidy, liked trains-not much time for hobbies, not good at sound stuff-expert at sound stuff, married-celibate.
list of similarities: fixing computers, can drive both cars and minibuses, musical, willing to help/fix things/ do things without moaning, get angry easily when stressed tired and see something thats wrong, dont like spending money unnecessarily, backstage stuff for shows, children(2nd person spiritual), knows everything(whether they like it or not, they do), christian faith.
yeh so anyhow, i suspect that might be why i look up to this particular person so much. like a father, but without the physical stuff. just thinking, thats all...

goodness foods week.

thus ends a week of hard work. fun work. tiring work. work. early mornings, late nights(my own fault...) banking, staring at a screen and typing lots of numbers in. checking things. emptying bins. drinks. filling envelopes. filing. confusing people by not being who skype has logged me in as-several times! its all good. hope 2 b bk here next holiday. cant get a saturday job here tho unfortunately, so ill prob enquire at white and bishop. wooo for the busy life! at least i wont have time to watch tv...(hmm yeh right!)

From HOG:

Hello. I've been banking. its fun. didnt get much sleep last night. my sisters boyfriend collapsed with chest pains and we had to call an ambulance at about half 10. they didnt leave till half 11ish. didnt do anything for him tho. one of them was really rude. hes ok now tho. aparently he has a medical condition, but its not usually that bad. anyway, i didnt get to bed till midnight, and then was still awake at half one. i seemed to doze for a bit but woke up at 3 for what seemed like ages. then i had to get up at 6 this morning to get to ws before half 7. *yawn* is an understatement lol. im coping tho. had a bit of a cry last night. not cos of dad, or craig inparticular. more that mum was stressing at me for trying to help and not going to bed. grrrrrraaaaaaaa. yeh. fun.