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its gone 2 in the morning and im still wide awake. why? cos i forgot to take a tablet that makes me drowsy and ive not been sleeping well. i probably wont get to bed till about half 3 now, so its probably going to be best for everyone if i dont go to the Jesus Centre for half 8. 4 hours sleep isnt much when ur as nackered as i am. anyway, its made me think how if we try and cram too much into our lives and dont get enough rest then we become ineffective for God. thats not to say everyone should stay in bed all day-if we were then nothing would get done and we'd be even less effective for God! we need the right balance to be the most effective. enough sleep, enough rest/relaxation(can be running around, u never know-anything that doesnt require much thought is good) and enough work makes the best combination. ive found recently that if i havent had enough sleep then i tend not to bother to do any work and just spend my day "relaxing". if ive had enough sleep and at sensible times(e.g. half 12-9 rather than half 2-11) then im more motivated to do something useful. its hard at the moment because im trying to tire myself out before going to bed so as to avoid lying there thinking for several hours. also, if i forget my tablet(like friday night) then i wake up every half hour. not good. im too exhausted, too tired, too stressed/on the edge to be effective in anything at the moment. a good blast of serving has been helping, but its the motivation to get that far which is my main issue at the moment. sundays is fine cos im around people. during the week im not so i cant be bothered and have to physically force myself to do certain things like eat. ho hum. so yeh, dont end up like me.