conviction

well tonight went well. get to whitestone almost immediately leave again for a walk to de-stress. end up in the prayer shed for a bit then get back inside to be insulted just as we go into the dining room for food. leave just before they start praying cos i cant cope anymore. then went and had a little cry on a friends shoulder. come back down and have the meal, after which i get an apology. ok, i dont forgive the person and use time as an excuse. later on i insult someone else who i also struggle to get on with at times, i appologise and they forgive me immediately. ouch. convicted. especially as later when im reading through a section of first steps with someone the parable of the king and the debtors comes up. the king forgets the large debt of one guy, who then goes and puts another guy in prison for not paying a smaller debt. im thinking God is having a go at me here! anyway, i know i need to forgive this person-which i think i have done and am sure that i have, however i also know i need to tell them to their face which is slightly harder to do! never mind. should be fun tomorrow anyway as im having a late night and have to be up at 8 tomorrow working through till half an hour before i should be at whitestone so will have to run over! woohoo for a busy weekend!
oh and if anyone knows of any jobs going that i have a chance of getting-or even if its just something to keep me occupied-id be very greatful.